5.10.2007
5.03.2007
Tune Up
I have lots of thoughts that get to something at the core, but they get lost in translation! It often seems like I have to fix everything to acheive the depth of understanding that I get a glimpse of every once in awhile. Oddly enough, sometimes it is when I am not treating myself well at all that I get the most productive thought processes. I think Denise was right. My life needs to calm down a little bit before I can really go through the necessary shift that is coming.
Pause!
Maybe I can just be enthusiastic about who I am instead of being unenthusiastic about who I think I should be. Like... living in the moment, right? Vairagyam. It's not just getting myself to the mat every morning. I think I get the idea of energy depletion now. It's not that I'm glued in to one place, I just am not expanding the flow of energy. That's why I like the tuning forks--I feel like they give my energy a nice jump, but a part of me knows that I can generate that myself. It comes from all layers of my being.
Pranayama has definitely affected more than just my energy level, but I want to focus on that right now. Since I have developed the physical capacity to take a deep inhale, I have a valuable tool to work with to affect the pranic layer with a brhmana quality. Right now, my body is deciding that the exhale rules the roost though, and I respect that. In fact, I just took a 10-second exhale through my slightly pursed lips with a 2-3 second hold afterwards. I didn't mean to, but since it is my natural rhythm of breath right now I decided to take a count.
I think my body is more in tune with regulating the sympathetic/parasympathetic nervous system, which is definitely tied into my focus on energy for the past eight months. I feel gratitude for the opportunity to work in the community that I do so I can nurture my calling to go deeper. My pranayama practice these past weeks has certainly contributed to it and has blossomed into a deeper understanding of what I am learning to practice and teach.
And, of course, it all comes back to generating enthusiasm on all levels. I think it's time for some physical practice.
Pause!
Maybe I can just be enthusiastic about who I am instead of being unenthusiastic about who I think I should be. Like... living in the moment, right? Vairagyam. It's not just getting myself to the mat every morning. I think I get the idea of energy depletion now. It's not that I'm glued in to one place, I just am not expanding the flow of energy. That's why I like the tuning forks--I feel like they give my energy a nice jump, but a part of me knows that I can generate that myself. It comes from all layers of my being.
Pranayama has definitely affected more than just my energy level, but I want to focus on that right now. Since I have developed the physical capacity to take a deep inhale, I have a valuable tool to work with to affect the pranic layer with a brhmana quality. Right now, my body is deciding that the exhale rules the roost though, and I respect that. In fact, I just took a 10-second exhale through my slightly pursed lips with a 2-3 second hold afterwards. I didn't mean to, but since it is my natural rhythm of breath right now I decided to take a count.
I think my body is more in tune with regulating the sympathetic/parasympathetic nervous system, which is definitely tied into my focus on energy for the past eight months. I feel gratitude for the opportunity to work in the community that I do so I can nurture my calling to go deeper. My pranayama practice these past weeks has certainly contributed to it and has blossomed into a deeper understanding of what I am learning to practice and teach.
And, of course, it all comes back to generating enthusiasm on all levels. I think it's time for some physical practice.
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