I am not sure what to make of today. It felt a little... off. My eyes opened at 8:45 at the insistence of Zack, in an effort to make sure that we got out of the house before the main breakfast rush at Barbie's. I dutifully got out of bed and meandered into the living room, where I remember making a comment to Zack about being on WoW again. This could have started into an argument, but it didn't. Instead, we brushed past it, and I went in to brush my teeth and wash my face while he finished up.
In the end, nothing really needed to be said, but it does bother me that Zack has been glued to his computer every morning of his vacation. I know that this really has very little to do with my feelings towards the game; rather, I recognize this feeling as the same one I have when I'm judging myself for getting glued to a screen. When the judgment is directed at myself, I can't stop thinking about the productive tasks I could otherwise be giving my attention to, or how sitting for so long is undoing the work I have done repatterning the musculature in my hips, or how playing the Sims just makes me want to play more Sims, forever and ever. For some reason, when I see Zack playing his game I worry about all of these things for him, and I get mad that he isn't worried about it as well. Yes, Zack plays on his computer too much. Yes, it probably prevents him from having to deal with some emotional, physical, blah blah blah. But he enjoys it, and it's not for me to interrupt that with my useless negative energy.
Nothing good ever came out of pouring negative energy into it!
OK, so moving on. We went to Barbie's and had a great breakfast. I confirmed with the ladies that we would have our yoga class on Monday, which I am looking forward to. I'd like to go into a diatribe so I can overthink my teaching experience before I have it, but I'm just not going to. It was a very lovely breakfast. Zack and I watched some loons in the water outside the window while we waited for our food. I never noticed that the feathers around their head and necks puff out when the ducks come back up from a dive. They suck them in again right before diving... so cute! Anyway, that was really the big highlight of breakfast, aside from the tasty food.
When we got home, Zack invited me to play The Sims for a couple of hours. When I finished, I was faced with the familiar challenge of how to fill the rest of my day. I set about loading some new music onto my iPhone, which took forever since I had to burn the CDs and then transfer the music. Then I decided I was hungry, so after unsucessfully whining at Zack to make me a ham and cheese sandwich, I threw together a bagel with cream cheese and some refried beans with corn chips. Needless to say, the meal was a little... starchy.
After that, I finally set out to start my second sewing project: a handbag out of some red print canvas fabric. Sewing is quite the opposite of playing The Sims for me: it requires a sharp mind and a lot of breathing, as well as good body mechanics. It's kind of like a good yoga practice, when you think about it. So that's where I've been for the last long while, with a break for making Grit tofu and stir fry.
I think I could have used some time outside time today, but after recapping the day I think that I spent it pretty well. It's important to have some downtime, but after the last two weeks of downtime I am feeling a little... stagnant. We'll see how I feel when vacation is over!
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