Messy is so relative.

I really don't want to contribute to the atmosphere of fear anymore.

It used to be that being anxious all the time was reserved for a select few. Even after our country was attacked by a bunch of extremists, people settled down pretty quickly and for the most part, felt safe. The smart ones did, anyway. But now? It's in the air. It's punching holes in our economy. Advertising agencies and politicians alike are exploiting it.

Strangely, I feel removed from that fear. Of course, and I am working on having some perspective on this, I am not all that invested in our economy. I am not "losing" anything. Well, that is not true. My own investments are nosediving steadily, worth half at the end of 2008 what they were in 2007. I also spent a few frustrating months trying to fight against fate and get a job, and now I'm happily "unemployed," earning just enough money to keep our heads above water. Of course, if anything big happens, I have my parents there to back me up. Not a lot of people have that. But even if I didn't have that... what would the use be in fearing the future? It hasn't helped me at all so far in the little things, so why would I trust something as iffy as my financial future to fear?

Nothing good ever comes from negative energy.