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In some respects, today felt very productive. In others, it did not.

That sounded very negative though. I got a lot done today and in some ways fulfilled my daily practice. Mom and I went to Karen's for yoga this morning. I like going to her little studio because it is so relaxed and more connected to what I feel a real place to practice with a teacher should be like. We did a lot of neck and back work today because Rosemarie slept on her neck funny. I really enjoyed a lot of the stuff we did, especially doing down dog and warrior against the wall. I worked on a lot of tension that I have been facing in my private practice, especially in the hips. Being against the wall made it easier for my hips to open because it didn't feel like they were solely responsible for maintaining my balance. I should remember that my stillness and balance comes from my hara, not from tension in my hips. Karen also aligned me in savasana in such a way that I was able to plug myself into the earth's gravity like never before. It was especially this rotation that she did with my shoulders... it helped so much! I learned later that she had discussed and worked on her fear of aligning her students with a teacher in Carnation that I really want to take a class with. I think it's Thursday at 5:45...?

My reading was actually a product of my job interview that I went to today. I interviewed at a Dahn Yoga Center despite my skepticism. The lady I interviewed with was very nice, although not the best speaker of English. I got two free weeks of yoga classes and a free book to read. I have to go to at least three classes a week until we meet in February to discuss if I'm employed. I am kind of relieved that this is the way it is working since I am so unsure of whether I want to work there or not. I figure, I'll take some free yoga classes and then see what I feel about the place. Anyway, the free book was my reading. The first chapter was about self-reliance and how we change ourselves to adapt to systems rather than the other way around. I can see that. I'm still going to be ultra-wary though. I won't let someone else tell me what a cult is, but I certainly don't want to test my resistance to one.

And with that, I complete my writing. Goodnight.