Concentrated.

This time, it will happen. This will not be another passing interest that doesn't hold my interest long enough to be meaningful. I've spent six years passively contorting my body, but now I want to still my mind. This is my life plan.

I will practice non-violence.
I will practice truth.
I will practice non-stealing.
I will practice continence.
I will practice non-coveting.

I will practice purity.
I will practice contentment.
I will practice ardour.
I will practice the study of Self.
I will practice the love of God.

I am making a promise to myself, and no one else, to hold to these precepts. I will not get anywhere without building blocks, and I need to allow myself to climb them slowly but surely. For the first time in perhaps my whole life, I am trying to approach something without already having formualted a plan to get through it by cutting corners and squeezing by. I want authenticity. I want to be authentic.

Perhaps I should set out some simple goals to accomplish every day:
Follow asana course once a day
Read about 30 pages that relate to the study of Self
Update journal

To start, that is what I am going to do. I hold myself to these three tasks every day with love.

Today, I learned that calm and stillness are inextricably important in my life. Without the cultivation of these states, I find myself lost in a sea of stimuli with no way to digest or expel anything that I've absorbed. However, I can't always control what I'm taking in. I need to cultivate my own stillness instead of rearranging outside forces in an attempt to create serenity inside. If I create peacefulness inside, I can spread it outside, thereby creating a more calm atmosphere for everyone.