Day 3

Well, I think today went slightly better than yesterday... maybe it's just because I am too exhausted to be angry! I only went there twice--once was on the road and once was at Zack. I know I set out to just tackle my samskara surrounding Zack, but I think it would be useful to explore both incidents.

The first one didn't come until about 4pm today. Of course, I was at the Yoga Barn pretty much the whole time, but there were definitely a few times between getting out of the Intensive and 4pm that I could have become angry. I did get angry at someone on the highway today though. 1)She was pacing people in the left lane. 2)She was from Texas (no offense Texas people, but Texas drivers are pretty damn annoying) 3)I was a little late for work. I didn't flip her off and honk at her though... and to my credit, I tried really hard to be nice about it before I really got angry. So there's some progress! I think I'm still a little mad about it though, which is kind of silly. I need to let it go--that's a lot of energy spent on one neglectful driver. That's a technique I need to work on... because I'm still convinced that I'm right! Asmita, asmita, asmita. For the people that I didn't get mad at, however, I worked on remembering that we're all the same parusha on the inside. That did help, but I need to work on remembering that about people that I can't necessarily relate to.

That's actually a good way to transition into talking about being angry at Zack. He called the Yoga Barn and told me he might not be home when I got home because he went to Bellevue to hang out with Dave. That's really fine with me, and I'm not sure why I got so frustrated. It was probably that I was a little jealous that he's out having fun while I'm at work (although it's not like I want to be out exercising my vices with him and Dave anyway!). There's a little avidya/raga for you.

Well, I think it's time for me to be hittin' the old dusty trail. I'm exhausted!