Well, yesterday did not go so well. Zack and I had a huge argument in the morning that started with him getting up on time to feed the cats and ended with us having a loud and heated discussion about responsibility and each others' flaws. That's usually where our arguments end up. I internalized that anger so much that I still have a headache from it.
I recognize that I could have started out the morning much differently by not mentioning his getting up ten minutes late in the first place. I don't even think that's what I was screaming at him about. I think what finally set me off to that point was his lack of recognition that I had a valid reason to be angry.
Wasn't I supposed to be realizing that as part of this exercise? That my anger is never well placed because I identify with it way too much? I think my problem here is going back to asmita. I was so convinced yesterday that I was right and he was wrong that I put myself through turmoil just to fail at proving that.
Asmita. Asmita. Asmita.
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